Pause to Reflect
The last couple
of days have given me some reason to sit back and ask what all of this is for. Why
should I try and devote all my resources to pursue what? Not asking for
sympathy or even an understanding on your part as I hardly understand myself. Instead
I take one obstacle after the next, and fight one fire after another, and just
plug along like an old horse on a dusty trail to nowhere. The trail does lead somewhere,
its end isn’t exactly clear but it is up ahead where I truly want to be, and
where destiny will finally show me the way to.
To begin with it
all started a month or so ago with all this rain on the cycle it was on where, I
couldn’t tie more two days of sunshine together to be able to dry it enough to
make hay. This was ok I guess, as I always have other things to do and was able
to keep busy. But even before that I had waterline problems and that set me
back for the year with a lot of projects I had planned for the summer season,
but the hay was rotting in the field waiting for the rain to stop. . This wasn’t
all bad as in the end this gave rise to a new solution to my compost problem
and actually eased the amount of work I have to do to get the compost I need.
One rainy day I was
watching a video of a hill girl in her bare feet pushing hay along the ground
and gathering it to throw on a wagon , and realized I could do the same with
the rake and windrow the hay and then take the bucket of the tractor and pile
it up in loose piles , while all the time I was wondering why I was baling it,
habit I guess . Loose big piles will allow the water to be absorbed as it lies
in the field hastening the rotting process allowing it to compost much quicker
than it ever will in a bale. In fact I have to tear all these old bales apart
to increase their rotting as I am going to need lots of compost. Can use it on
bare spots on the farm and it grows things big.
My next project
is to move the raspberries I had planted beside my house and transplant them into
a regular row in a field where I can mow on both sides and between two wires to
hold the canes up. Hopefully within a couple of years I will be able to start a
pick your own of raspberries , red and black, black berries , and dew berries,
which all grow here on the farm and are readily available for transplant. I was
able to grow raspberries of the black variety up to a quarter size in compost,
as well I have had the same happen from the red raspberries but lately they are
overcrowded an need to be reset and composted again. This is all good, as I have
compost on the hill and an area alongside the lane that will work for my initial
start of the grow your own berries.
3 months ago the
tractor had a problem with dying out as I drove it around and I finally
determined that it was the fuel pump and replaced it. Yesterday after raking
hay that had been rained on, I brought the tractor to the house, and let it sit
overnight, and when I climbed on it yesterday and tried to start it, it wouldn’t
turn over, it had a hole in the fuel pump and drained the fuel tank into the
crank case and the pistons had no place to go because they couldn’t push
against the oil and fuel oil in the crankcase. I pulled the dipstick and oil
shot out of the dipstick hole. We drained the crankcase and pulled the fuel
pump and could visibly see the hole in the diaphragm of the pump. Anyhow we were
able to turn the tractor over, the diesel shouldn’t hurt the crankcase and at
most may cause a little oil use as it will clean the seals a little too well.
Before that last
week, it was tires as I had front tire blow as they are getting old. The tractor
is ten years old but I only have 1600 hrs. on it, which isn’t that much, but
instead just broke in good. The tires still had a lot of tread but because I had
accidentally drove over some obstacles that required me to put boots over the
holes in the tires weakening them. Eventually they required tubes and then the
tires weakened to the point I was going to have a major blowout as I did, so I decided
to replace the front tires and bought 2 new ones as part of a renewal process. Hoping
the rear tires go one at a time as they are 600 apiece. Front tires were 200 apiece.
Not bad if you are loaded with money. Not really the case for me. Now then
another 68 dollars for a fuel pump and 30 dollars for oil just to keep the
tractor going.
On top of that I have
had a coon problem and it managed to take 3 of my chickens right out of the
chicken house forcing me to tighten up their security and for extra effort I left
Babe out all night, as I don’t only have chickens but baby ducks as well and we
started out with 8 and are down to 7 on one duck. The other duck beside my
house hasn’t finished setting on her nest and from the smell of things, I think
her nest may be rotten but she still sits on them. One egg I saw in the nest
looked like it was developing so who knows maybe she will still produce some
babies. Hope it is soon, really
stinks.
So no hay or
plenty of hay as is actually the case and no way of picking it up or doping anything
with it for a few days. Good thing I was going to let it rot anyhow, because
that is what it is doing. My chickens are dwindling just when they are about
laying size, ducks are doing ok and the sun is now baking everything in the
greenhouse making me watch the water more carefully. There are times when you want
to give up, but then what would I do. Sit around and obsess about small stuff,
and slowly work myself into early Alzheimer’s. If keeping the mind active to
avoid Alzheimer’s and early onset senility is any way to do it then surely
farming is the way for me. But then again I have to be crazy to worry about all
this when others are sitting around watching TV in their underwear, doing nothing.