Just When I Thought
Knew Everything
I had the
occasion to slip out yesterday and put behind me a project way past due and
that was a haircut and trim. I doubt that being able to present myself in the
most favorable way will be of any consequence to anyone but me and my mirror ,
but still I have no intentions of disappointing either as a consequence of inaction. So I hopped into my car and made an
appointment to have both done at a place in New Philadelphia, Ohio I know of.
On my way there
in the town of New Philly as locals have been known to call it and coming upon
the courthouse on the left as I drove in town, I was stopped by traffic as is usually
the case. I think the town of New Philly likes to have you sit in front of
their courthouse, as it seems this is always the case when travelling through
town. Streetlights out of sync so that one cannot just fly past the county
square without taking the time to drink in the beauty of small town life.
At times you could
swear it was ripped right out of a Norman Rockwell painting of small town life.
in the winter the courthouse is adorned with white twinkling lights sparkling
in the clear night air lighting up the majestic dome adding flavor to the
season, and on the front steps leading
up to the main entrance from the square , a display is set up on the now vacant
steps to symbolize the number of domestic abuse complaints, drawing attention
to the plight of families as they go through the Christmas season when tensions
are the highest as families let their tempers boil as they try to make ends
meet.
Not far from that
a veteran took his life in the front lawn where a Vietnam veteran memorial now
stands. He was looking for help but couldn’t seem to find it that day as he
took his life. I glanced at the memorial and something caught my eye from
across the street where a mural takes up a whole wall with symbols of Tuscarwas
county history, I noticed and old man and woman waiting on the corner for the
light to change before they cross the street.
When I speak of
old I am merely suggesting with more years than I , but at this point I can’t
really tell someone’s years. I am finding some friends I went to school with
age faster than others and some look as if they are caught in a freeze frame, not
having aged much since youth. This man because of his appearance and being bent
with time, and as well his companion, or I assume his wife , who was dressed in
a slightly unkempt manner herself as she fidgeted and pointed to this and that
until the light changed and she grabbed his hand as if to help or tug the older
man across the intersection to the other side. At times brushing up and almost
leaning on each other to struggle their way across.
I was sitting at
the light and had the window open in a midday sun. A warm to hot breeze blew through
the car, but not nearly as hot and dry as it was out where this couple was
crossing the square under the shadow of a courthouse dome. I watched them
intently at times feeling sorry but glad they had each other to lean on as they
get older.
As they neared
the other side I could see the older woman’s enthusiasm seem to ratchet it up a
notch as something most assuredly had caught her attention as she tugged on the
old man’s sleeve and dragged him toward a planter at the end of a park bench. At
one point she dropped her grasp of him and begins to bend over and then I could
see what she was going after. A rose so perfect its red beauty showed itself to
me sitting across the square. I watched as she bent even closer and cupped the
whole flower between her two hands and stuck her whole face down and inhaled
the beauty of that rose. Drawing the essence of the moment along with its aroma
deep into her lungs and holding it as long as she could drinking in the
euphoria of simple life , and simple rewards to living a full life.
I then watched as
her husband, boyfriend or whatever he may have been to her at the time and most
assuredly her partner in crime appreciate the moment and force a crooked smile
to his lips that suddenly bloomed into near laughter at the sight of his woman.
Not laughing at her but instead with her, as he also drank in the moment
regardless of whether he had smelled the same thing. Instead he was drunk on
her reaction to such a sweet gesture by the woman who was undoubtedly reliving
a moment of life .
One would not
smell a rose so deeply as her if you didn’t know what a rose smelled like , she
had been there before and was going back again. As she let that sweet aroma
linger on her lips and past the tip of her tongue on the way out of her body,
her wrinkled face made a smile that smoothed out even the deepest furrows in
her face, so that her youth shown all over in place of what had been there before.
I sat in the car
and noticed their smiles were so infectious as I too was smiling inside as I watched
them interact in such an impish way. I suddenly realized I was handicapped as I
sat there in the car being denied that chance, of a moment of happiness they
were experiencing as that couple together in the big little city. Also my
initial reaction to them was one of pity, feeling sorry for them as they leaned
on each other to just cross the street. But oh the rewards for instant youth
they had gathered in their smiles as they stopped and smelled the roses, and
here was I now being denied that chance and I was envious of them. Knowing full
well my experience would not be so welcomed if I were to exit my vehicle
leaving it sit in traffic where it sat till the light turned green.
It may be ok till
the light turned green as assuredly people would just gawk when I left my
vehicle , but for sure they would be bitching and yelling when I stopped to
smell that rose for myself after crossing the square on foot. I know what a
rose smells like, and I also know what those guys in the black uniforms are for.
They like to write out tickets for such stunts with enthusiasm as great as the
old woman’s to the smell of a rose. Any words I could use to try and express my
desire to be there with them and enjoy that moment would be lost on deaf ears.
The light turned
green and I looked in the rear view mirror and saw the anxious look on the
driver behind me and I wondered if he too had witnessed this miracle of human
life. If he did it was lost on him as it seemed I could see his relief as my
car passed the old couple on the right now and everything sped up as I now had
to concentrate on my driving. Still I was left with an emptiness and filled
with envy of those folks back there withering in the distance where all that is
left of them is my memory of that moment.
My biggest envy of
the moment was not having someone so simple as to be able to stop and smell the
roses , but instead having that person in my life to lean on to get there, and
then to have the time in this busy world to actually be able to do it. Lest we
not forget the memories of times before to make it want to happen again.
So in the end I will
never look at a rose again without some thought to how beautiful life can be when
you take time to bloom with someone you care about. And I must remember to stop
and smell the roses along the way, if for no one, but for myself.
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