12-28
2014
No Sense
Waiting For the First.
greenie and momma duck(brown one) and a couple of their babies
This is going to be a chronology of
events and will follow along my efforts to remodel myself into a new home. The
home as it exists will in some ways still be there but I intend to make my
accommodations more comfortable. I made up my mind shortly after being busted
for the pot charge that I needed to make changes in my life and start taking
care of me. The world will always have problems and I am not the one to fix
them all and hardly qualified when I find it hard to take care of myself,
physically and mentally at times. I went to Dundee falls to sort out a few
things in my life and the end result was a major change in me making myself and
my welfare a number one priority. Partially because of what happened to me, but
more because it stirred something inside me to change my priorities and think
more of myself.
trees to clean up yet
By now you are asking yourself what the
hell the psycho farmer is taking about. He lives alone and has only himself and
his dog and all this shit available to him why doesn’t he think of himself more.
No one around to stop him or throw accusations at him, he is in the driver’s seat.
I guess for me it has been that I am reluctant to do anything because deep down
I would have liked to have made this journey with someone in my life. I can’t
seem to find the right person. I know she is out there and would have loved to
have had input on what I am about to do. I would have loved to have had a woman
here to help me. Guess it was never meant to be and I am wasting time worrying
myself about what will or may never be. In the meantime I need to take care of
myself better.
I have also been reluctant to invest to much in this house or abortion
as I call it, it could be referred to as a cross or hybrid house trailer combo,
or a Houser as I will now refer to it. My brothers are not from that breed of
trailer trash wannabe’s but somehow two of them have seen that trailers are a quick
easy solution to a living arrangement. In the progress of things, I have
eventually ended up in the aftermath of their efforts over time. I have spent
hours remodeling and improving on their Houser’s or what they have left me only
to come to the conclusion it is still a trailer. Plain and simple cold in the
winter with a crawl space underneath that disgusts me to no end to have been
under to do anything. I can’t stand spider webs in my hair and face, and snakes
and wet damp ground. Also there is usually no room to move when you are as big
as I am. Anyhow any reluctance to build could surely be overcome with the
satisfaction and knowledge I am in control of what I’m going to build and I need
to make those changes to the design to make sure I never have to worry about
crawling under a trailer again for any reason.
some of the wood i have harvested so far
I was also torn about making a decision
as to how and what to build. Lately I have been spending a considerable amount
of time trying to come up with something unique and yet of the country heritage
a log cabin offers. At touch of new mixed with old, still have not thought
about all the design parameters as to make it senior proof. Who knows what lies
in store with our lives and I want it to be simple and yet something everyone
would want to spend time in. I think instead of two bedrooms, one for company,
one for myself, I intend to make me a guest cottage that will be included in my
plans.
Again one reason I was reluctant to do much in terms of building or
remodeling was that we are in the process of establishing the farm in a trust. I
am not really sure how it will all end. All I know is I will have a place to
live the rest of my life. This also includes our other farm in Tuscarwas County.
Currently I have other brothers and sisters living and utilizing housing there.
As well my sister lives in the main house here on the farm currently. t is kind
of hard to invest in something you will never completely own but in essence I have been doing that for years as I have
spent countless hours for which I will never be paid working and taking care of
our family’s interests and preserving it thus far. It is hard to just walk away
and do something else, especially at my age
more logs to be skinned
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greenhouse this time of year.
So I hope you can see it has been a conflagration of events, a literal firestorm
of impending life courses that have drawn me to this point in my life where I have
to just let everything be. If this is my destiny then I need to make this mine
where I am now. No one else in the family is clamoring to get it, and I have
been planted here , I just need to repot and let my roots grow and make this
place as well my mom’s house and this
farm a showplace where what we do in terms of landscaping and home improvement
becomes who we really are. My main goal is to leave the place a lot better than
when we found it. It will also serve as our grandparents and parents have
always desired a place to fall back on in hard times.
In regards to that, just the other day someone asked to go deer hunting
and I had to refuse. We have coyotes and deer here in this area and from what I
have seen and heard from hunters I would say our wildlife is somewhat in check
or balanced as it must have been a hundred years ago before man. The coyotes
are eating the young deer and limiting the deer population. The coyotes are around
us everywhere and yet we never see them and only hear of them as they bay their
presence at us over a shrill sound or the call of the night. I like the idea of
having wild life here if we ever should need it to survive to me is priceless. To
be able to go out your door and bring food to the table if necessary is
something everyone should have.
carving i am working on
We have never saw the hard times of depression or never had enough to
eat, but what if we should need to eat. Is it worth someone filling their
freezer now just because they like to hunt our deer? Isn’t it worth letting nature win for now so I
can assure it may be there later? Our family has a history of getting by and
doing with less. Oh the miracles we have performed with almost nothing. Given
that we utilize all we have then the possibilities may be endless. That is what
I intend to do with what we have here on the farm look at what we have and make
the best out of it. Bloom where I am planted. It is my hope that everyone can
do this in your life. Make the most of any situation you may find yourself in. if
you are sitting in a pile of shit let the warmth surround you and then plant
some seeds , get up and move one . We all have those days. Think yourself out
of that box.
Well it is my intention to do that as I take you the reader on my venture
of building myself a better way of life with what I have available to me.
my loan goosey
I started out not knowing what to write and mainly to tell you I had the
chance to take another load of salvaged limbs off the downed black walnut to my
storage area to be processed more later. The brush I am placing around the perimeter of the farm to prevent people
from trespassing, trying to give them a natural fence excluding them from entry
by only one way, and that would be from
the lane coming into our property. Well I need to get moving and I may not post
every day but will try and do my best. If interested in helping me with my quest.
Email me and lets see if we can work something out. Would enjoy the company.
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