why is life like this?

Oh the Typos Some Days

mistakes-like why didnt i put the greenhouse closer to my house than what seems like a mile away at times?

    If mistakes are how we learn I must be heading into the genius category anytime, as it seems I have had my fair share of them, and yet despite all I have had I still continue to make more. Thank someone for a backspace key, or I would never be able to write anything on a computer.

   That aside and a usual start to my day have led me to make more mistakes just this day yet. Nothing on a grand scale, instead small typos hardly visible to the naked eye and hopefully alerted to me by my word program so that I can shine in my own regular way.  It isn’t only the small mistakes that have shaped my life but still larger ones and a lot of those when I was younger. The old adage ‘We grow old too soon and wise not son enough’, and this applies to myself most readily.  

    I have had my fair share of mistakes , and at times, if I was to be the judge and jury by which all evidence is weighed I would say I have had more than my fair share of mistakes. Some I caused and some happened naturally as if something I was doing was doomed to fail naturally, some I made while not being cognizant or aware that they were mistakes till it was too late, only to see the misery of my actions play out before me.

      Some were big mistakes and a lot of those I have already wrote in a self-deprecating manner trying to find humor in my remorse of how it turned out. And I made a whole lot of small mistakes and continue to do so daily, as if this is a normal part of my routine. I try to not make mistakes and would like to be perfect, and say instead of a mistake I could stand back and say yes that is how it is supposed to be.

     Still I am only human as we are most certainly mistakes in our self. It is part of our makeup. As if 9 months before mom and my real dad went to bed and conceived me, that they had the fore thought and all-knowing to say for certain that they were going to conceive me, on that very day and minute. It is a mistake to think that a parent has enough forethought to know exactly when that special time is that a child will be conceived and that they had saved themselves for that exact moment.

    Instead I believe as most people should, it is more a heat of the moment type of thing, less planning and more grunting than anything that brings you into this world on that special day. So in that sense I would say we are almost all a mistake from the beginning and so it must be human nature to make mistakes. Your parents may have told you, you were planned for, but if the first time they went to bed together , and you were not conceived then undoubtedly they made a mistake.  This would in the end lead you to believe they have less credibility in your planning, then they want you to believe. Then again if it happened in the back seat of a 56 Chevy, then you would also think that maybe it was not so well planned. Had it been planned in maybe in a church pew being spoiled somewhere, that would have been better to usher a new life in, and give you somewhat of a blessed start so to speak.

    Even that wouldn’t work so well as that would be sacrilegious and demeaning to your faith, but then again is it right to bless them in that same church after the mistake had been made. Does anyone count the days anymore when it comes to baptism? Anyhow that is not my concern although it may have been yours, still life is full of mistakes, and we all make them. Some good,some bad.

      Still in the end it is all part of a learning process and those that don’t make mistakes or never have, have the most to learn. Most people are not naïve and realize mistakes are nature’s pathway to learning. You touch a flame, you burn your damn fingers, you screw in the back of an old 56 Chevy without any contraception you will have a mistake, plain and simple. Knowing full well you never have to go to those extremes to know what the outcome will be. Some mistakes stay with you a lifetime others just an instant. Those that have never made a mistake undoubtedly had parents they listened to, that had made all the bad mistakes and imparted more than their fair share of wisdom  with their kids. Or that they are lying through their teeth and maybe truly believe that anything they do is perfect, or until they are called on it, and at which point conveniently say I don’t remember.

    These are the people in life you should avoid as they are hypocritical bunch of perfect planners that have everything arranged as to how it should be. In this way they avoid the hit and miss system that most of us operate under. As if their lives are so perfect, then why were they not born to millionaires and instead struggle like the rest of us to put food on a table in a house with a roof over our head? Surely if I was born perfect then money was going to be the first thing I would have gone for. The rest will come in time.

     So I think in conclusion there is no such thing as perfect as if perfect was something to achieve. All of human’s vices would be hard to put aside, as well in the end and if you were perfect then you would want to keep your record as being perfect and never die, having seen years earlier that death wasn’t a perfect way to go out and that people may expect you to be normal under those circumstances, and just go peacefully. But you being perfect would hardly want to leave this perfect world behind to find out what? That maybe in the end it doesn’t really matter if you are perfect as we all die in only one way and we all get it right every time, since no one has made a mistake at that yet? This in turn would lower a perfect person to that same level as everyone else and in the end would make their life a mistake in knowing, that all they did and thought was no better than anyone else.