some days are like this

           a friend just passed that i was talking to as if it seemed it was last week and our subject then was the loss of another friend , we had both worked for him and knew him and he was both our ages and died suddenly, as it seemed to us. who would have thought old age would do us in ? when we were young we thought car wreck , doing this or that would be our end , or possibly a stupid bar fight might be the end. you never knew but kept pushing the envelope and yet you lived and made it this far but it seems you can only push a body so far, and the end result is dying.  and the sad part is you cant beat it. nobody ever has.

        it seems as if life was supposed to get easier and less stressful as we grow older. it only served to make matters worse  as now we know our time is limited , and so we must get things done . then some other adventurous fool had to come up with a bucket list of things you never tried but might possibly want to try before you go. and all this takes money and so you work yourself into an early grave worrying about always having enough. 

       and what is enough , money , time , someone to share it with , and health to assure you can share enjoyably. one with out the other is never a good thing. if you have the money then you don't have time if you have time then no money this isn't good either. and what is enough . enough to last a lifetime. or maybe a  wild double nickel summer in tropic places with rita the meter maid  , or enough to buy a bag of feed for this 4 legged feed vacuum eating alongside the lane there in the photograph as she never gets enough . there seems like there is never enough in anything you do so it is a mute point

       someone to spend your time with as we get older. wow, as it nice to have someone see or experience the same things as you. , it always to help have a reference point for alzheimers unfortunately. someone to say no we never did it hes talking out of his mind. better put him in a home . 

        i guess it seems as if someones passing is a chance to reflect on your life and where you are headed. hope all is well with you and embrace a chance to experience a little more than others you have seen pass before you, and be thankful . it is all a throw of a dice at times. wow when i was growing up never thought old age was going to be my end. my thoughts are with greg and terry.